On we go
Ja .. es geht wieder los ..
für diejenigen wenigen die es ab und an vielleicht doch noch lesen mögen.
Die Tage sind schrecklich kurz geworden inzwischen und das matte Grau des Regens schlägt vermutlich auf das Gemüt der Stadt an sich. Mich hingegen macht es nicht zwangsläufig depressiv, höchstens ein wenig gemütlich und irgendwie die meiste Zeit über müde.
Ich schlafe schlecht, wache ab und an auf und fühle mich - ganz unabhängig von meiner Erkältung Morgens selten wirklich fit. Dennoch hat alles die meiste Zeit über diese gewisse Schönheit von Grau, von regnerisch und angenehm... doch leider habe ich kaum Zeit stehen zu bleiben und all das zu beachten, mir anzusehen und festzustellen wie faszinierend die Welt in ihrem Fascettenreichtum doch seien kann, wenn man sich die Mühe macht hinzusehen.
Allgemein denke ich wieder mehr nach .. mehr über weniger wenn ich ehrlich bin .. Der übliche Drang nach idealistischen Wertvorstellungen und nach einem ehrlichen Leben ist wieder erwacht, dannach mehr das zu tun was man sich iwkrlich wünscht um am Ende nicht sagen zu müssen - ich habs wohl nichtmal versucht.
Daraus werden wieder mehr Fears, but who cares .. maybe you just overcomes that by tuen .. by lean .. through being there.
--- This morning I thought of friends with whom I do not so much lately, from people who were once important to me and sometimes still are ... Above all, Sherry, I miss you somehow and that was a lot not too long since .-- not here not there - hold anywhere in my life. could she went for most of my head on it this morning, then Melle and Anne, and I yes to second now and then very very sporadically have contact and am not sure whether we were really still friends today. Well .. Melle has always been complicated, what our As for relationship .. little time little contact, sometimes intense sometimes not ... tuen what you want ..
--- I thought once again butterflies, to the vomit in the spiritual sense and to the people in the bus full ... The banality of a morning bus ride and the restless silence in the auditorium. The study allows one to see again a lot and feel much, much new and yet well-known only because the human life are but over and over again as the same to appear. Still ...
The lecture hall in the law school is one of the best examples .. He has an aura of comfort, at least for me. The architecture, the light, the many people sitting on the hard wooden-folding, which muttering to himself and spread a feeling between being compulsive and learning desire. All this has a calming effect and one where I feel comfortable. Other places just do not have this, even though these are relatively rare here. Most simply have no, or I do not succeed me to relax and calm enough to be open to all that enters from outside.
The worst was the last evening. I lay in bed and tore an inner restlessness me formally. A vacuum of emptiness, which is to be contracted to be filled with anything but not a calm feeling, even lazuli a clear structured thoughts.
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This morning was the think better .. now it is already too inhibited .. I .. would soon return to it I think .. but first of all, the rich here .. nru perhaps a few hours or even less, but perhaps also for the next few days ..
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Oh yes ..
If someone reads ..
I can not decide which blog should I use .. this one .. or
/ www.myblog.de somewhere
is actually the better .. but this one is clear ..
now ..
suggestions?
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