Height Of Collimination

somedays ...

Hum ..

Why does it feel like this? Everything ... so .. unfinished, so restless so .. indescribable. I try over and over again and fail usually already equal to the smallest approaches. It is not to rest, a feeling of homelessness without really wanting to be a stranger or to search far. It is mixed between numb Gammeln hectic and too much, which you can not escape inevitable.

The wish that some things are done and the endlcih the time so far progress of the whole shit is over and you can even get a few carefree days ... but where will they come from? What would be carefree? Little .. or even nothing at the moment it is .. I still try and try again to let go.

Some moments I will be torn from the Gerfühlsmüll and sniff a bit of the clean air above it, which is quite warm and illuminated by the sun. Cans discarded hopes sparkle light metals and light here and there are larger debris of old ideas complexes. I put my nose in the air and do not notice these things. Enjoy only for the moment ...
But then when I pulled back down and will sink, the air must continue to dive around, then I can not capture these moments so well. The misery of everyday life and not enough to store all the permits this pure pleasantness of my body for a time with.

The trial is .. hide and everything to do with an elbow wneig space .. happy but not making a straight, no, rather the contrary, if you irritable and aggressive response to its environment although this is not umbedingt would like, but feel helpless to block again and again ... or maybe not and explain again and again .. and .. where an understanding anyway, hardly anyone is listening and even less ...

This is what I am missing someone .. of once again like to listen to honest and willing .. all to share ... just someone I have not really time to ... maybe I'm just too weak to create someone like me, maybe the people here, but at present I can not make it the first step to do in this direction - for new MENSCHNER - and the old - I have long since abandoned. .. because it remains a superficial wneig hinfortwischt explained and a little frustration ... at least not quite go down - the feeling remains that no one is willing to listen with real interest is ..